Mesandy
05-30-2007, 08:16 AM
This is a story of one of my close friend named rina and it is really inspiring and i wld recommend everyone to read it and reply back if u liked it and i promise u all , it wld give u confidence to face anxiety
I am a dynamic and ambitious 24-year-old young woman. I have always achieved my goals, and people regarded me as a very successful person. Nevertheless, when I expected it least, IT HAS APPEARED.
It was like a nightmare. I could not understand what was wrong and why all this was happening to me. Of course, for 4 or 5 months I visited around 10 doctors to see what was wrong with me - heart disorder, cancer, AIDS, or what? What could have been so severe to cause me those horrible feelings?
As you might have experienced, those symptoms were the signs of panic disorder. For me it has started after graduating from the university; I had just got a very good, satisfying job when it all began. When I was eventually diagnosed with anxiety/panic disorder, I thought it was a bad joke, even though it couldn't have been. I realized in the end that indeed I was facing a mental problem that leads to those scary symptoms and I accepted my illness.
At first, however, I became ashamed of it, as I figured no one could understand what I was going through. I was afraid that people would consider me crazy and that I would end up in a mental illness hospital -- it was horror. Four months ago my doctor recommended Xanax and Zoloft, which I started taking, as there was no other way out -- I really felt I was going nuts for good. I scared everybody around me with my behaviour: I was crying all the time; I wouldn't leave my house; I wouldn't talk to anyone; and I was thinking that I was about to die or go crazy at any moment. I can really say that it was the worst thing that happened to me so far.
The hope reappeared 2 months ago, when I began feeling better each day. I felt like living my life again. I started to overcome my fear and fight with it very seriously. I assumed myself the "risk" of going on long distances alone again and many other things that a normal person does. Currently I'm still taking Zoloft, but I hope I will quit it in 3 months time. I have started to read a lot (as I did before) and I really feel that I'm becoming the winner in this battle -- a psychological one.
thanks,
mesandy:)
I am a dynamic and ambitious 24-year-old young woman. I have always achieved my goals, and people regarded me as a very successful person. Nevertheless, when I expected it least, IT HAS APPEARED.
It was like a nightmare. I could not understand what was wrong and why all this was happening to me. Of course, for 4 or 5 months I visited around 10 doctors to see what was wrong with me - heart disorder, cancer, AIDS, or what? What could have been so severe to cause me those horrible feelings?
As you might have experienced, those symptoms were the signs of panic disorder. For me it has started after graduating from the university; I had just got a very good, satisfying job when it all began. When I was eventually diagnosed with anxiety/panic disorder, I thought it was a bad joke, even though it couldn't have been. I realized in the end that indeed I was facing a mental problem that leads to those scary symptoms and I accepted my illness.
At first, however, I became ashamed of it, as I figured no one could understand what I was going through. I was afraid that people would consider me crazy and that I would end up in a mental illness hospital -- it was horror. Four months ago my doctor recommended Xanax and Zoloft, which I started taking, as there was no other way out -- I really felt I was going nuts for good. I scared everybody around me with my behaviour: I was crying all the time; I wouldn't leave my house; I wouldn't talk to anyone; and I was thinking that I was about to die or go crazy at any moment. I can really say that it was the worst thing that happened to me so far.
The hope reappeared 2 months ago, when I began feeling better each day. I felt like living my life again. I started to overcome my fear and fight with it very seriously. I assumed myself the "risk" of going on long distances alone again and many other things that a normal person does. Currently I'm still taking Zoloft, but I hope I will quit it in 3 months time. I have started to read a lot (as I did before) and I really feel that I'm becoming the winner in this battle -- a psychological one.
thanks,
mesandy:)